How Do I Heal??
Here are some examples..
BUT, With the "right" opportunity (that could be a person saying or doing something or a situation happening) the damage of your past hurt will rise up.
You consistently go through these cycles. Meeting person after person and this friend becomes a foe. You don't trust anyone. It's hard for you to truly love anyone. You feel everyone you get close to, will leave or hurt you. Or you attract people that are no good for you. You never had the proper example of how to go about and have a true relationships because the first chance you had with the person who created you, has failed you. You may even attract great people, but you become skeptical of everyone and cut everyone out of your life. So then every relationship that began in your life ended in failure throughout your teen years and to adulthood. To understand this it takes self reflection which leads to self awareness.
It seems hurt is very consistent. It doesn't matter, hurt is always present. We live in a fallen world that is only lifted by God. God is more powerful than the hurt the we experience. Yet and still as consistent as hurt is, we have to be consistent about our healing.
We consistently change something from our outer appearance or outer needs, hoping this will change the inner outcome of our situation, thing such as,...
Buying a new car
Buying a house
Moving to another apartment
Buying new clothes
Trying different make up
Getting another job
Get a job in general lol
Wearing tighter or more revealing clothes
Cutting off all our hair
Buying new hair
Have sex with a newer or the same person
Buying this new or same person material things
Dumbing down who are
Becoming more vocal
And with all of these changes, we do and we do and we do...Consistently .... Until....we just crash.
We have a temporary moment of pleasure, we have a temporary moment of fulfillment until we get back to this sunken place.
To get healed, it's going to take you to be still. You have to sit and be still with God.
- Begin to write in your journal or that piece of paper. Begin to think back on all areas of hurt you have experienced. Write them out. Write the name of the person who has hurt you an any type of way. You have to be vulnerable with God and yourself. You are going to have to identify the root cause of your behaviors. It was not your fault that your parent wasn't around or did not do right the right things by you. As harsh as it sounds, yet and still, your healing is your responsibility.
When you begin to truly look into your life, You're going to reach a point where all you have is questions.
Why do I keep attracting toxic people in my life? Why do people seem to use me? Why do people treat me unfairly? Why are people insensitive to my needs? So many questions that are in need of answers.
Questions are beautiful. Develop more questions. More questions = More Answers.
- Write out the questions you have.
Choosing not to heal and become aware will result to your child(ren) who will develop the same traits you have if not, possibly deeper issues. Only if you do not put an end to them now. As above your absent parent was too damaged by another absent or even dysfunctional parent. Your parent may not have received healing or they may not have been consistent in their healing or they were and even are right now in their process of healing. That's how you see a difference in who they were when you were younger than how they are now. Your absent, dysfunctional or upsetting parent to is a human being worthy of forgiveness. They are imperfect, they haven't made the best choices and they deserve grace and even if you feel it is unfair, it is what is right. Forgiveness does not mean access to your life. God died for them just as much as He died for you. If they are not healed and they are the same person they were to you all of your life or even worse, it's going to be okay. Get healed to make sure you don't end up continuing the cycle. Set up proper boundaries so that you won't be effected by their inconveniences and inconsistencies. These issues don't just spill off into your children, it can effect your friendships, your marriages, your relationships with your family.
God didn't create robots and everyone has a free will and a lot of people take free will and use it to its disadvantage. People hurt others voluntarily and involuntarily. We have to forgive in order to move on in our lives and get the healing we need to become whole and complete human beings.
You may have had a proper example of love from parents but you know there's some things you still are unhappy with in your life. You may be full of anger, worry, anxiety or even fear.
There's many reasons why we do the things we do and why we have certain responses to certain circumstances.
Why do you keep having sex with more and more people? It could possibly be that you want love and affection but you think sex is going to give that to you. Why? Because you didn't get the proper love and affection at home growing up.
Why do you feel the urge and necessity to eat, drink or smoke excessively?
It could possibly be every time you think of what a person did to you in the past or even what you did to someone, or things and situations that caused or presently cause you pain, you don't want to face it so you'd rather not have to deal with reality.
There's so many things that you can possibly need healing from and I am here to help you with this blog. This isn't to discourage you.
This is to inform and encourage you to get healed.
It isn't a race. It's a lifestyle you're building.
It may be a whole two pages of things you may write about what you need healing for. And that doesn't mean that it's going to take longer. If you cooperate, yield to the Holy Spirit, stay intentional and don't allow anyone or thing to come between your healing. It will happen extremely faster than you think.
You'll begin to see a huge difference in friendships, finances, life goals and much more as soon as for come into agreement with the Holy Spirit. You don't have to be 100% perfect for God to use you or bless you. You just have to be willing to experience life with Him. Once you gain the experience, you become qualified to go out and let God increase you and use you in the areas that you already love to do. That's a win win situation.
So here's what you do..
Get A Journal and Ask God to reveal to you every area of your heart that you need healing in. Ask God to show you the root cause of the issue.
Know that God wants you in a healed state of mind, a healed physical body and have to a healed heart
Tell God to let His will be done.
You have to made a new creation.
When He begins to show you, He'll show you slowly and FYI lol He's not angry with you. He just loves you enough to be real with you.
1) You have to be vulnerable
Don't sit on your healing.
If you are having an issue/problem say it and be honest!
God, I am having a hard time forgiving... and state the full name or what you identify with the person you have unforgiveness towards with.
If it deals with an issue that has to do with you alone, still be honest. Talk to God as you would to talk a friend and vent.
2) Be Specific
You have to be specific and include all details you can think of about the situation. This means being honest.
God, I hung up in my parent's face or walked away from her/him while they were talking to me because I felt she/he was never there for me, so why would I be there for her/him?... I feel angry, I need help.
Why? Because you're actually helping yourself come to terms with who you've been portraying.
Only when you accept and agree and move forward with what God tells you, you can move forward in life towards that situation. IF you dont hear Him right away that's ok. You're still making moves towards your healing. IF, you choose not to listen to God WHEN He speaks, healing won't happen for you and you cant move on to what's next.
If you feel confused, that's normal. You are NOT confused. You're trying the unfamiliar. Keep pressing on.
3) You have to speak against every negative issue.
Are you having a hard time trusting people? This may be your views on God and you feel God never vindicated you or showed up to help you when you were hurt by others, so your views on God and other are depleted.
Are you having anxiety attacks? Do the same find scriptures that help you with peace. Release anxiety and accept peace. There may need to be action as well and that would be to leave people and environments that bring chaos. At times this isn't the easiest to do, but creating a plan and sticking to that plan is possible when it comes to things like changing a location that requires finances you do not have. This is when the above list of outer change is necessary. As you heal, action is what will help, we just need to remember that outward changes help temporarily, but inner changes help eternally. Yes you can move out of the chaotic environment, but the trauma that came from that environment still is alive within and as stated above, with the right opportunity, you will find yourself back in bondage because you need to continuously seek healing. Remember healing is the priority.
Speak against the areas you know. And don't forget to ask God to reveal any areas of your heart that need healing.
What I did in my journey was write down every area of my life I felt and knew that I had a tough time dealing with in a journal. I dealt with many things. And dealt with those issues with people. I had felt hurt by many people. I hurt myself often in the past. I was very damaged because the choices I made over and over again. I wrote down the negative issues and people and spoke positivity and the Word of God over them and my life. Google will be your best friend in this part of healing. Use Google and type in the issue(s) you have or are dealing with and how to find a scripture to match. Use and allow it to guide you. Read this often. Read this blog over and over until you can walk on your own.
You will see growth. You will get healed and you will get passed every hurt and pain that has had you stuck in life.
Remember it's like a relationship. Feed your healing, don't starve it by not acknowledging it. Take some time to rest and reflect always. It doesn't have to be rushed. For me, I went at with all I had because I was fed up with satan and his tactics. I was tired of my own choices. I got tired of wanting so much more to always end up owing something because something always ended up being stolen from me.
I gave my heart and my body too many times to only end up receiving nothing back but an attachment to someone who never planned to give me their heart from the start. I was frustrated. Once I begin my healing and stayed intentional also and when you do...
4) Problems will try and resurface back into your life.
Just because it tries and you may feel some negativity from it, doesn't mean you haven't got rid of the issue(s), You're human. And we cant control other human beings. We are limited to controlling some of our circumstances. A lot of our thoughts are hard to control. But we can control and shift our minds. Whenever thoughts or even the actions of the person(s) you had issues with arise...cast it down and speak life over yourself with the exact scriptures you have been using. Pray for people who try to bring you down. You may fail drastically in the beginning. You may snap on that person. You might even snap on God. God will actually receive that because it's genuine and He knows the end from the beginning, Gods grace never runs out. You may not be able to deal with people who hurt you and that's normal. You are not perfect. As time goes by, it gets easier and you begin to understand and get in tune with your healing process. You'll recognize red flags in people and you'll see the triggers in yourself. You'll understand YOU better.
Remember, your healing is your responsibility and it should be a priority. During this time, it's okay to be selfish to focus on YOU. It's okay to be isolated FOR A SEASON. Don't excommunicate yourself forever now lol.
But getting in that quiet place is necessary. There will be many tears, many overwhelming feelings, thoughts and some pain to deal with but never forget....
5) It takes time!!!!!!
When you do this... come to agreement with this. Incorporate deeper prayer, and more reading of your word. This will be the fresh start of a deeper relationship with God. Begin fasts. Cut off social media if you need, or any music that can stunt your growth and create negative thought patterns, skip a meal in the day, fast from 6 am to 12 pm, skip out on sugar, research and implement a 24 hour Daniel Fast. Teach yourself about fasting in the word.
I have accepted Christ in my life at 20 years old. I am now 26 and at 25, I went through this process of healing and I feel I barely have gotten to know God at age 25. I feel reborn and renewed. And I look at life and the lives of others differently. I am healing day by day. I want others to get their healing also.
There's so many great things that God has in store for you. But you first must be healed so that God can use you to heal others. If I had not gone through my process. I would not have had this blog for you to read today and so much more on the horizon for my life.
This healing is also known as THE PROCESS! Many people run from it and that's why a lot of people have been hurt in this world. Including you. Run towards it. It's less painful than allowing even greater pain to grow in you.
I promise, you will not fail even if you fall.
I promise, you will see results in your life, if you are truly genuine about this.
I promise you will see God much greater than you have.
I promise you will attract so much abundance from people, situations and some material things.
I promise it gets easier when you are able to identify what's going on in your life.
You deserve good friends
You deserve to know God even greater.
You deserve that nice home
You deserve a great spouse
You deserve to be FREE!!!!!!
You may not see it. And sometimes I don't feel I deserve anything. But the day Christ laid His life down for you and me, was the day I believe He believed we deserved so much more.
You got this!!!!
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