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Loss (Feelings)

 You never know how a prescence of something or someone can be such a support. When that presence is removed, you lose yourself for a moment. You begin to be someone else. You become weak. You feel lost. You just dont know... don't know anything, don't know anyone, you don't know yourself at times. Misunderstandings become law. Help becomes a disability. Hugs feel like betrayal. The words, "I love you" feels as if is not reality. Gossip and slander are the norm. Toxicity is clear. Anger seems as if it is the way. Trauma bonding is at an all time high. Disconnect lies at hand. Hurt rules the day while tears grow in the night. Fingers and toes are fueled by tingling anxiety. Support is distant. The person or thing that lent support, that helped you when you were down, that showed you love, that was a safe haven is now gone. A hole lays in your heart and every blow that is aimed at it seems to hurt immensely. Your heart feels withered. Your body aches. Your appetite

Don't Neglect Yourself Focusing On Other People

 Focusing on yourself is a full time job because you hold many areas of life. You are someone's daughter or son. You are someone's auntie or uncle. You are someone's employee. You are someone's CEO or Executive Director. You are someone's fiance. You are (possibly) someone's girl friend or boy friend or wife or husband. You are (possibly) someone's mother or father. You are (possibly) someone's roommate. You are possibly someones friend. You are possibly a leader in different areas and hold responsibility for a business or organization. There are so many roles you have responsibility for and that does not include who you are to yourself.  In these roles you have responsibilities and priorities. Putting people's needs before your own is apart of life, yet your main focus of needing yourself will be your demise or it will help you.  The main goal in life should be to serve (love) others and God. But if you are not in the proper mindset to do so, things

Why Does This Generation Seek Prophesy So Much?

 I chose to accept Jesus Christ as my personal Lord and Savior around the age of 20. I knew about God and I liked churched as a child and attended a couple services a year throughout my upbringing. My family taught me things about God and some of those words stuck with me, but my own desires were a priority for a long period of time in my life. It wasn't until I turned 20 moved to Sacramento to live with and take care of my mom who became disabled and begin to seek Christ more.  I had a promiscuous past, dated and "hooked up" with men. God used a weakness of mine to actually provide me with great strength. He used a guy to share the knowledge of God with me. This guy I thought I would marry would soon exit my life 8 months later to marry someone else. God had him do what was needed to be done and removed him. What was needed to be done was me actually recognizing and getting to know God for myself. I needed to know God not from the point of what my family said to me, not

Set Backs Will Catapult You

 This last year has been such a huge transformation for many people. Some people lost friends, family and aquaintences that were affected by a huge world wide pandemic. People's lives changed before their eyes. With a pandemic, that did not stop everyone's day to day issues and needs. Before the pandemic, people still needed more. During the pandemic, the things that people needed before seemed to be heightened. I believe that everyone who needed support in any area, anyone who may have needed finances for many things, anyone who needed community, anyone who had needs seemed to need those things even the more. While people fought a pandemic, people still were fighting to mend broken relationships. While many people were fighting to stay healthy to prevent harm from the pandemic, many people were still battling to develop forgiveness from other people trespassing against them. While many were sanitizing their hands and surfacing to prevent the spread of a virus, many people were

Pain is Inevitable (You Are Going To Hurt Others)

Life has a way of showing how much we are not in control. We are human beings, flawed and imperfect. We make mistakes often. We judge too harshly and we judge too quickly. Sometimes, we judge too late. Due to our imperfections and shortcomings, we are going to hurt others. Based on your level of healing and maturity, you will hurt others either intentionally or unintentionally.  Unintentionally hurting others is apart of life.  That doesn't mean you are NOT healed or in your process. You just may have said something innocently and wind up triggering someone.  Most unintentional pain happens even when you are healing. It comes from the words you use that are not so much focused on a particular person or the actions you take from a pure and/or protective place.  That place may be for justice and righteousness, or even just for enjoyment and laughter.  Intentional hurting of others is words, expression or action im which your focus is on the person you are acting towards or talking to

You are Beautiful (Growing in Self Esteem)

Being beautiful is 100% who you are. Even when you don't agree. Why? Because God made you with every intention in His being. God created enough oxygen to last billions of years after the earth was created so that YOU would be able to breathe for years and years to come. In the bible, it says, I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well. (Psalms 139:14 KJV) When you get to know God, you understand that God's Word is personal. It is specific and it is targeted to you. The scripture above says that marvelous are thy works and who the author is talking about is God. God's works happened when He created you. He used action, thoughtfulness, preciseness, intentionalality and even fear. The scripture that is above states that, you are fearfully made. When something is made out of healthy fear, it means that growth is going to follow. So does that mean that God was afraid when He created you? Not at all,

Am I Really Mature?

If someone asked you, "Do you think you are mature?" I can guarentee you the answer would be yes. I believe everyone believes they are mature. Saying you're mature and being mature is two different things. Maturity is all in your actions and reactions. In order to understand it, think of it as the natural aging process. Babies are immature because they need a lot of tending to even if they may not even realize they need it. In our non perfect world, we have it unnaturally as even some elderly individuals still behave as children. Below are some signs that will definitely reassure you that you are mature. ● You would rather talk things out than to lean to your own conclusions. ●You can admit when you are wrong verbally even if it hurts.  ●You're opened to criticism. ●You understand correction is for your betterment even when it doesn't feel good.  ●You are teachable  ●You understand mistakes are going to be made, and there's always room for improvement.  ●You a